18 Years ago and Now

18 Years Ago and Now

well..let me just start of by saying.This post is not to be understood,but just merely how im feeling and experienced.


*takes in a deep breath*

*relax..relax..*

was trembly after just now,with a happiness and confusion.happy was because i was given such chances,repeated chances.and..confused is well..ill leave this part to myself.

Trust for people is one thing that i lack now,ive been trusting myself too much and now i will need to find a balance.:)

Everything went well.The only thing that didnt was that i stood like a stone and wasnt active at all(stupid ming yao stupid!!)..and the next time i go there ill be as happy as possible,maybe imagine that im wearing a Gold underwear or something:p.

Started off with flattering comments.Ended with a "thank you".was briefed on most of the things i need to know.

i really did not carry enough confidence there..Need to work on it:) which i will.will need to be more friendly as well.

And so and so forth.

Well.i guess this is the time to show some people that they suck as friends and are such a letdown.

But before i think anything further.I presently will and need to work on acknowledging people(trust),interior confidence as well as exterior confidence.And i MUST believe that I CAN DO IT!!

:D this is me for you bay bay~~

So ya I better find a job.tomorrow GOING TO GO FIND!ROARR!!..and also go out even more often.so that i can keep my energy running.

Lastly must thank God for his blessings.im not a christian and go church but i seriously believe that theres something...a force..that is in charge of this:D.