Suffer Now,Happy Future
Happy now,Suffer Future.
Im finally at this spot.i dont think im far from my goal.
yes.its true that everything is slower than expected.i thought i would have made my move on my birthday.But it dragged till now.and i have not made my move yet.but im kind of glad.
but its very close and i can sense it.ive told my dad about my plans.he approved.
now its an application away and the right time to do it.
time really flies.i've been preparing and studying for more than a year now.im confident of my actions.although it does seem im alone in this.no one seem to have faith and have very supportive words except for my dad.its not the alone that makes me uncomfortable.but rather its the cynism in people that make me withdraw from telling people.i just have to keep my mouth shut.extremely shut.being alone in this subjectively is better.
should it fail.ill need to re evaluate everything that i know.and find out what loopholes did i miss out.but the thing is...till now i cant find a loophole.the plan seemed perfect.now im just waiting for the opportunity.i havent been wrong about it generally from a year ago.i dont think ill be wrong this time.
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Who decides how you live?
I have made my mind to study A levels to change how my future routes itself.Whether ill be able to get straight A's is the big question mark.
Nonetheless if the people i know have done it.i can do it as well.Judging by how the friends i know who get perfect scores and poorer scores and comparing their study habits...there is that difference.
I have made my mind to want to live in a place like Skypark or Hamiliton@Scotts or its equivalent.Drive a car only 10% of the population can drive.Have a wife/family that be happy and healthy.Travel around the world with no worries.Repay my parents with the best ways possible.
Nothing seemed as important than this.
(Personal thoughts)
And i noticed....Asian guys mature slower than caucasians.
comparing myself.i need to step up as well.toughen up.
Maybe that is why SPGs found attraction in them.Girls maybe in their 23's..will notice their friends marrying around and all.but at our age.many guys are still immature (including me i'd say).many girls as well do not know how should they choose their mate except to follow their feelings.
so the burden(responsibility) would fully fall on the guy.that....i would say.is the crucial point break.
i must make that difference
Im finally at this spot.i dont think im far from my goal.
yes.its true that everything is slower than expected.i thought i would have made my move on my birthday.But it dragged till now.and i have not made my move yet.but im kind of glad.
but its very close and i can sense it.ive told my dad about my plans.he approved.
now its an application away and the right time to do it.
time really flies.i've been preparing and studying for more than a year now.im confident of my actions.although it does seem im alone in this.no one seem to have faith and have very supportive words except for my dad.its not the alone that makes me uncomfortable.but rather its the cynism in people that make me withdraw from telling people.i just have to keep my mouth shut.extremely shut.being alone in this subjectively is better.
should it fail.ill need to re evaluate everything that i know.and find out what loopholes did i miss out.but the thing is...till now i cant find a loophole.the plan seemed perfect.now im just waiting for the opportunity.i havent been wrong about it generally from a year ago.i dont think ill be wrong this time.
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Who decides how you live?
I have made my mind to study A levels to change how my future routes itself.Whether ill be able to get straight A's is the big question mark.
Nonetheless if the people i know have done it.i can do it as well.Judging by how the friends i know who get perfect scores and poorer scores and comparing their study habits...there is that difference.
I have made my mind to want to live in a place like Skypark or Hamiliton@Scotts or its equivalent.Drive a car only 10% of the population can drive.Have a wife/family that be happy and healthy.Travel around the world with no worries.Repay my parents with the best ways possible.
Nothing seemed as important than this.
(Personal thoughts)
And i noticed....Asian guys mature slower than caucasians.
comparing myself.i need to step up as well.toughen up.
Maybe that is why SPGs found attraction in them.Girls maybe in their 23's..will notice their friends marrying around and all.but at our age.many guys are still immature (including me i'd say).many girls as well do not know how should they choose their mate except to follow their feelings.
so the burden(responsibility) would fully fall on the guy.that....i would say.is the crucial point break.
i must make that difference
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