Cynism And Perfectionism

There's a lot of Ben Graham inside of me.im like covered with pessimism.i have to be patient yet agressive.its not easy at all.

Theres only one more thing to do.which is : pull the trigger.

But the question is when.i dont have the answer.and im scared of the question.i need leverage but i dont want to expose myself to something i am unable to grasp myself.

Come on...just hit that....i need more time to decide.it has to be right.

And you know..i feel theres a lot of cynics or cynists in the world.Always there are.trying to pull you down and all.
But my reaction is definitely ignore as i dont care.

well.lots and lots to think about which causes stress and make me worry and when i dont worry its another thing to worry about.